Uncontrolable feelings

Sometimes I just have this uncontrolable feeling. And I just wanna cry. Because I feel so lonely. And it sucks. I'm sitting on the teachers desk. And there's like a big empty circle around me. And no one gets closer. And I know that they don't mean it. Bus still. What can I do? Study. Pretend I'm playing with the iPod. Pretend I'm very concentrated. And maybe I won't look so pathetic. Most of time I feel like and observer and that's ok because sometimes that's what you have to do. But you can't avoid to want to participate on life. And stop being just an outsider.